Saturday, June 10 @ 9:43 PM
i think i really having mood swing le.. hai.. how did i live my life these few months? i believe many can see e diff rite? Many months ago i was always looking so frustrated n depressed.. but these recent months even i can see e diff dat im more cheerful n crappy. lol. =X i like e present. at least when i laugh, i forget everything.. dats y im quite glad my friens didnt mind when i 'went crazy'. haha.. thk u guys so much. N i also learn to enjoy life even more.. eating all kinds of foos i've been wanting to eat. (i know its unhealthy =X) (: but i cant be laughing forever. how i wish i can always mantain dis happy character.. even when ppl give sarcastic remarks i wont mind n jus continue joking with them. Why is it dat everytime im 'healing' halfway den i mus remember of those memories again? i tink im jus hving my pms.. On dat day i was really extremely happy. Sometimes how i wish i can forget everything. please.. erase my memory.. Im willing to forget everything. Even those happy memories.. Soon i hv to depend on those memories very much. but i noe e more i tink e more it hurts too.. why mus life be so... argh.. sometimes i jus hope God can bring me to join him sooner, where there will b no worries n painful memories. i can sing everyday! :) but i know my mission is not done.. i hope im jus having mood swings n not lying to myself.
